Thursday, January 27, 2011

2011 you aren't shaping up well

So, I was really, really, really hoping that 2011 would turn out much better than the previous year.  However, by January 12, it was obvious that was not to be the case.  This is the day that my oldest son was dx'd with diabetes, also.  We caught his early since we have been doing random checks due to an initial high A1C back in November, but that doesn't really make it any easier.  At least this time around we already know what we are doing.  Currently, he is only on Lantus with no fast acting insulin to cover his carbs.  That makes it easier for him to adjust, as he is NOT one to like shots, pain, or anything of the sort.  He's the one that it takes multiple people to hold him down for blood draws and immunizations.  I will say, though, he has gotten better over the past few weeks.  He no longer screams "ouch" with every shot or finger poke.

Logan required an adjustment to his Novolog a few weeks ago.  I'm thinking he may still need another adjustment soon as I'm not seeing the numbers I want to.  Still way too many higher numbers in the evenings for my taste.  It's also time for his annual eye exam.  I've been trying to find an opthamologist to take him to since I want someone that is an MD to check his eyes with the diabetes dx.  However, there isn't one in the area that will accept children.  I'm probably going to end up having to take him to Charleston for this, also.

Then, we have this deployment coming up very soon.  13 months without my husband and best friend.  13 months of me dealing with everything all on my own.  Yesterday, his car died.  The timing belt broke.  Odds are that when it did it bent some other engine stuff, that I don't understand.  At least it did it right before he left and I have 13 months until we will have to get him a new one.  However, that is extra money I didn't plan on having to save for.  I wanted to use the extra money he makes while deployed to pay off all our credit card bills.  I didn't want to save for a new car.  I don't want to worry about a car payment again.  I wanted things to go right this year.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Go away 2010

I've had enough.  This year was supposed to be the year of good things.  I was finally going to be living with my husband again after spending 3 years apart.  We were moving into a huge house with lots of room and land and places for the kids to play.  We had a new area to explore and learn about and lots of things to do.  Things were supposed to be GOOD.  But, instead, let me summarize how my year has gone.

First, when we arrived in SC, I learned that there was no chance Logan was going to get into the public preschool because the waiting list was too long.  So, we went back to him being at home with me all day again.  He was not happy about this, and I was less than thrilled.  We had gotten in a routine, and now that was messed up.  In January, my grandpa had a heart attack and had bypass surgery and spent weeks in the hospital. In March, Logan developed orbital cellulitis for the second time.  It was somewhat rare that he got it in 2008, and now we were dealing with it again.  We spent 5 days in the hospital in Charleston where he had surgery and received IV antibiotics.  In May, the lawnmower we had purchased broke, so we spent a bunch of money to fix it.  Money that came out of our vacation fund for Disney World.  In June, we went to Disney World for a week and had a blast.  Then, we spent another week and a half in Indiana seeing family.  About 3 weeks before we left, my mother informed me that we could no longer bring our dogs with us to Indiana, so we had to hope the kennel they were at while we were in DW still had openings for them.  They did, but again, this was money to come out of our vacation funds.  At the end of June we returned and Paige began speech therapy because she still wasn't (and isn't to this day) talking.  We also had to fix yet another thing on our lawnmower when we got back.  We now had no extra money, as that was spent on vacation.  Mid-July a fellow Marine and friend of Matt's died in his sleep.  This in turn caused my husband to suddenly think it is ok for him to start drinking again despite the many, many issues of our past this has caused.  In August, Matt left on a boat to float around in the Atlantic with the Marine Corps for a month.  The lawnmower broke...again...both right before he left and while he was gone.  My other grandpa passed away.  I wasn't able to go back to Indiana for the funeral because I had to be here to take care of the kids and school was starting in a few days. Both boys started school.  Derek in 4th grade and Logan in Kindergarten.  Within the first 2 weeks they both missed school due to being sick.  Within the first month, Logan's appendix burst, and we spent another 10 days in the hospital after having emergency surgery.  During this time, it was discovered his blood sugar levels were high, and we were sent home with a blood glucose monitor to keep an eye on them until we could get in with the pediatric endocrinologist.  That didn't last long.  We were home 4 days before his levels were high again and we were sent to Charleston to spend another few days in the hospital receiving diabetes education.  My 5 year old is now a Type 1 diabetic.  Back home to have one child or another getting sick almost every week from October until now.  Paige is also getting numerous hearing tests to rule out hearing loss and audio neuropathy and other things since she isn't talking.  I had Derek's and Paige's A1C's checked since Logan was diagnosed.  Both are elevated.  Derek is now checking daily.  His numbers went over 200 last week, and we made another trip to Charleston, but haven't yet been diagnosed as diabetic.  Matt is deploying to Afghanistan for 13 months at the beginning of 2011.  And, I am losing my mind....and my hair, literally.  I was also diagnosed with Alopecia Areta in July, which causes my hair to fall out in patches.  At any given time I have at least one, and sometimes more, bald spots on my head.  I'm gaining weight constantly.  My knees hurt.  My body is tired.  My mind is tired.  And, I'm depressed.

I have no time for myself.  I'm still fighting to get Logan's 504 plan in place for school.  The nurse calls me almost daily because she can't manage to figure out how to handle his diabetes.  I'm taking Paige to speech therapy twice a week, and when Logan was out of school before Thanksgiving he went with us, and the speech therapist thinks he is delayed in his speech again, so I need to get that looked into.  And, amidst all this, all my husband can worry about is his needs and his wants, with no concern at all for mine.  We fight and argue constantly because apparently I don't pay enough attention to his needs or let him sit around on his ass enough.  And, of course, we still have the drinking to contend with.  What he said would be a beer or two once in a great while is now back up to one or two, if not more, each night.

Friday, November 12, 2010


I've had this blog set up for awhile now. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with it, though. And, while I read many, many other blogs, I'm not always one for writing things myself. I figure, though, since I have been leaving more comments in various places that if someone were to click on the blog name, they might want to know a little bit about me, so here goes.

Who am I?
I am a Marine Corps wife.
I am a mom to 3 wonderful kids.
I am a Type 1 Diabetic child's mom.
I am a stay at home mom.
I am a reader.
I am an amateur cook who loves food.
I am a South Carolinian for the time being. But, I have also been a Hoosier (Indiana), a Georgian, and a North Carolinian in the past.
I am a college graduate.

I have hopes of writing more in the near future about my life and family, but as I said, I'm still trying to figure out how much I want to put out there for the world to see, so I don't want to give out too many details just yet.